The start!

I have wanted to lose weight for a long time, and I have tried weight watchers a few times. Twice now I have started weight watchers and said to myself this is it and then I have got preganant after losing about a stone. Which is good because I wanted to be pregnant but bad because I then stopped losing weight.

So this year because I don't have anymore plans for a third baby, I am going to try and lose the weight. I have a lot to lose. So as my BMI stands today it is 40.4, which is really bad. The NHS say's that a healthy BMI for myself would be 25. That means I have 6 stone to lose. It's going to be hard but I really want to do this. I don't think I will mange 6 stone in 6 months, but I hope to be almost half way there.

Losing this weight is going to be the hardest thing I ever do, but I am going to give it a good go and I WILL stick to it. I am hoping this blog will help me on my way.

This is my weight loss journey!

8 months old

I can't believe that Jacob is now 8 months old. I don't really know where the time has gone. He's still going to the hospital for his reflux, and he's still being sick. We moved in August and in september we went on holiday. We found that has reflux had taken a turn for the worst he was always crying, and bringing up all his feeds. So I started weaning him. While weaning him we noticed he would keep all his fruit down and anything that didn't have milk in, however when he was given milk based products the sickness was worse. We took him to the gp and he was given a lactose free milk and we haven't looked back since.

Apart from all of the above Jacob has been a true pleasure to have in the house. He is a very good little boy. He is always happy to sit and play. He sleep's very well too, and last month he went into his cotbed full time. I wanted him to use it from birth but he was unable to lay flat, so he slept in his swing.

Anyway I have some picture's to add :)

Now that our household is more calmer, I will blog more.

Ten weeks on...

So ten weeks on, and things are a bit well not good. Jake has a bad case of reflux. It's something he has had since birth and was up until about 2 weeks ago, well controlled with gaviscon. However now it has stopped working, and he has to have gaviscon and zantac. The Zantac has helped, but not as much as what I would like. He is still uncomfortable with it all. So I have to keep him up right most of the time. My GP is sending him to see a pediatrician, so I am hoping then we will get the right combination of care medication and milk.

However he is smiling lot's and lot's, so here are some pictures to share :)

First smile caught on camera.

I always knew his smile would be beautiful, but after all I am his mummy!

Life with 2 children

Jacob is 5 weeks old now, and I was just thinking about what life is like now I have them with me. I just saw someones post on babycentre and they had said life has just begun. I guess that saying is right, but I always feel my life is much richer having them with me. I feel as if a hole has been filled, and I am happy having them here. It feel's good not only to be a mother, but to be a mummy. I have always wanted to be a mummy and now I am to 2 very special people.
Sometimes it isn't easy at all, and for a second I think about all the tings me and James could be doing with all the free time we would have. But I would never change a single thing. I love my children from the moon and back and I hope they will grow up to love me back.

My life is full and I am so pleased that both Eva and Jake belong to me.

4 weeks on

So 4 weeks on from birth and things are going well. Jake is mostly breastfed, apart from the fact he has 2 bottles one in the evening and then one in the night. He is gaining lot's of weight which makes me really happy. He is no 10lbs 10oz :) he has gained a whole pound in a week. He is a very strong little boy, and he is such a good boy. We all love having him around even Eva. Here are some recent pics of him.

He is so much different from Eva in many ways. I can't really believe how much different they are, but they are both very special to me.

The arrival of baby Jake

So on Wednesday 11th May 2011 via elective cesarean section, Jacob Noah was born.

I went to the hospital at 12pm that day, I had a bit of a time to wait as we didn't go down until after 3pm. I met lot's of people who would be with me during the op, I was given a gown and then someone came to get me.
Once I was in theatre I was asked to sit on the bed. I then had a canula put in and then they were ready to do the spinal. On the first try it failed, so she tried again. It seemed to work straight away and my legs became really warm. I was then laid down on the table. They put a screen up so I couldn't see what was happening. I then started to feel really sick, so was given some drugs to take it away. They then tested the spinal, with an ice cold spray. First on my hand then all the way up my leg, and then chest. Once they were pleased it had worked, the consultant came in and I was cleaned. They then put the green paper down, which seemed to take forever when actually they had started to cut me. All of a sudden I was told I would feel some pulling and pushing, and that was just the baby being born.
Before we knew it we could hear him crying. They were very surprised at his size, as I was expecting a baby smaller than Eva. I was shown the baby, then he was taken away with James to get weighed. When she came back she told me he weighed 9lbs 8.5oz, I was really shocked. I was then stitched back up and taken through to recovery. I lost 1 litre of blood, which is much better than the 2 I lost last time. Me and Jake had skin to skin, and he was breast fed within the hour. 2 things I was too ill to do with Eva.
I came out of hospital friday night and he is just perfect.

Proud dad!

Meeting big sister.

My two beautiful babies. Love you forever...

Pre-op complete

So today I had my pre-op and I was there a lot longer than what I expected. I was told all about everything that could go wrong, which did worry me. I had some blood taken which went wrong. The mw droped the bottle that blood goes into on the floor, so all my blood was going everywhere. My hand swelled too, and is still swollen now. Infact it is very sore! So I had to have more blood taken from my other hand. I now feel annoyed that I even let her go to my hand, I just thought it would save time. Now thinking about it, I will be having a canula put in on Wednesday and my hand so sore to the touch.
I then saw an anesthetist who was really nice, and I am so gutted she won't be giving me my spinal on Wednesday because I just felt so comfortable talking to her.
Anyways I have to be at the hospital 12pm Wednesday, I will meet the anesthetist and the consultant doing the op and then we will go down. I am really scared, and just want all to go well.

After we had finished at the hospital, we went into town and I bought Eva a gift. This will be her gift from the baby, and it is a Boofle dog. I was going to get her a tatty teddy, but the dog seemed more something she could carry around and take to bed.

I really hope she like's him. I will be taking him into hospital with me and then when she comes to visit me and baby she can have her gift. I am really worried to leave her this week, but I am sure she will be just fine.